I’m fine is my favorite lie, because not all lies are bad. Sometimes you have to lie to protect the people who want to protect you.
I miss the days before I was just a broken piece of nothing. I miss it so much it hurts, the only good thing is that it took being broken to realize what I need to fix
(Source: allaboutthemaces)
Wanting to tell someone you miss them, but knowing you can’t because that’s what ruined it all in the first place is by far one of the worst feelings
(Source: lovequotesrus)
Yesterday I was so afraid of binging that I ate a freezer pop, (basically frozen koolaid) had a diet pepsi and a diet dr pepper plus I hardly worked out at all. I’m ashamed and the scale made sure to show me why. Only about a half pound loss from yesterday. If I’m not losing a pound a day I’ll NEVER make my goal by Christmas. I have to buckle down today drink lots of water because that’s my biggest failure, I’ve already had a glass of apple juice today to keep my blood sugar up so I don’t feel dizzy or weak. I know what I’m doing to my body right now is hard and probably not the best thing, but I also realiZe my mental health is far more unstable than my physical. I have to fix my body so I can fix my mind. Today is punishment day. Time to force a few more pounds of fat out of this disgusting body. Day five of no food and I am still going ok. Just one day at a time and no slip ups. I smoke weed and I really need to stop it makes me hungry and lazy. I have to make sacrifices in order to fix myself and smoking pot is a tiny one when you think about it, it barely counts as one at all.
